Bad bad bad bad day

Crying alone at the corner of the Carrefour this evening with him on the other side of the phone.
Just some minutes ago, I am happying searching for the stuff I want to buy for my dog and a call to my mom has changed everything.
Something very bad had happened and she is crying at the other side of the phone telling me the bad news.
I am like being bomb by people,my God! Comfort her calmly for quite some times even myself is in very shock, angry and sad situation too.
After hang up the phone, there is no more mood to shopping already. I though I can stand on with the bad feelings inside me. But I just couldn't do that.
Walked out from carrefour, went to a corner side. There it goes my tears rolling out.
You will never expect people can be that selfish.
You will never expect people can be so bad.
You will never expect being stab by people from the back.
You will never expect it is by someone that is so unexpected.
You will never expect it is someone that is so close to you before, even is your own family can be that selfish. They are so selfish until they are willing to hurt their own family for their own benefits. Bad.
Disappointment, anger, sadness..
I want to do something.
Especially something to cheer up my mom.
I love her so much.
If only people can be a bit good and don't just think of themselves...

Sleeping posture and Strawberry

This post does not related to any psychological test.
Its just the sharing of the sleeping posture of my hamster.
Its just the sharing of the eating strawberry photos of my dog.

~ Came back from class one evening and found my hamster girl slept in her food bowl with her stretching posture. Very cute. She is definitely bigger size than her food bowl.

~ From another view.

~ Another afternoon and once again noticed that she slept in her food bowl again. Different sleeping posture, still looks so adorable. >.<

~ Close look even can see her yellowish incision teeth. I bet the weather is too hot that she also came to sleep down stair. She didn't even notice that i opened her cage and took this photo of her. hehe~
Lets see how's my dog do with the strawberry.

~ Spot the strawberry from the far, then her eyes never move away from it until she got it.

~ Come on..come on..Bring it nearer, closer to me please...Feeling like saliva is going to drip out in any minute. I want strawberry!

~ How am I suppose to eat this red stuff? Whenever a dog comes across a new food, she will licks it first to taste it~ woof~ Got the strawberry finally.

* The end *

Happy day with some little changing

A great glad day today, started with~
Cubby finally can contributes something. I woke up early to prepare her and her food for her to go to Bt espo. She was invited to the test run of the program for next Dogahton.
I had a date today as well.
Went to mid valley by taxi from my house here.
I got a snowy white Baby - G watch from him.
A T - shirt souvenir from his Singapore trip.
Biscuit souvenir from the Australia trip.
Went to my favorite Sushi King.
Added the Ga-sha-pon capsule toy of my Gundam00 collection.
Watched Fast & Furious at GSC-signature at Garden.
Exchanged a cute slice of bread toy.
Tried the Food Garden.
Forced people to eat more at shih-lin.
...blah~blah~...

I enjoyed the day very much.
Satisfying and happy.
Thank you to the one that precise me so much.
Lastly, I am in a relationship from now on.

Pets' Planet on Blog

It's time to have a blog on all my pets~
Everyone can have a peep..My precise pets/friends/family members~
1.

Name: Chai Chai (means vegetable)
Breed: Crossbreed
Sex: Female
Age: 7 years old
Fav food: Fried chicken wing, carrot, milk flavor sweets...
Special talent: Catch flies!(hihi)
* My first pet, given by my neighbour when she was still a puppy. The year she came was the year I lost a family member and she came to replace him. Having a lot of memories with her and without notice, she's already 7 years old. An old auntie already, but she never changed her behavior especially in eating. Damn picky and always eat gently, slowly, lazily.. She's the one that I always miss so much because I only get to see her few times a year when I go back home sweet home. Ohya, I hardly can get a nice photo of her because she hates taking photo very much. Currently, she adapted to travel in car so damn much~
2.

Name: Pau Pau
Nick name: Ah pau
Breed: Syrian hamster
Sex: Female
Age: 7 months old
Fav food: Oat
Special talent: Climb high high and jump down, being gangster in her own cage!
* She's not that fat as in the photo above. She's just picking up too much food and stored them in her pouch. A greedy 100% girl, also a very gangster girl. She will removes and throws everything inside the cage, making her home so messy. She loves to climb up and down, loves to be on top and then jump down. Currently, she's away for holiday and I heard that she has gained another new hobby. That is turn over her food bowl and then pick all the food back into the bowl. She found that's a very interesting to do and I seriously don't understand what is inside her small hamster's brain. She's senior at my house here because she came first, so Cubby is junior of her.
3.

Name: Cubby
Breed: Shih Tzu
Sex: Female
Age: 8 years old
Fav food: Bread, orange, carrot and almost all food but no dog food.
Special talent: Begging for food with only two front limbs up without support o~
* Adopted her last year when she was in very bad condition and being abandoned by her previous owner. Now she's getting fatter, prettier and very manja. She will runs away from home everytime when I scolded her, ended up kena scolded much badly by me after I pulled her back.hehe~~ Now she is a bit down and dull, fill with jealousy because there is another new dog at home now.
4.

Name: Puppy
Nick name: Little one
Breed: Miniature pinscher
Sex: Male
Age: 5 years above
Fav food: Basically he eats everything that I feed him
Special talent: Very quiet. (hehe)
* As my previous blog, this is my new fav junior dog at home. But he will just stays temporary coz there is a friend that willing to adopt him already. He never bother Cubby senior and still scare of people that approach him. Anyway, he is getting more and more better from day to day. I just bath her today and really love to play with him lately because he is really cute and good boy. Never make noise even though I make him to stay in the cage alomost all the time.


Actually, I still got another hedgehog boy which I rear for a short time only. Now he stays at my roomate's home, getting healthier and fatter..So, I just leave him there since I share him with my roomate. Yet, I also have pets here to take care of..hehe..
That's the Pets' Planet for my blog~~ All the pets with theirs paws on blog~

Another Dog

Picked up this miniature pinscher on Monday afternoon.
First approach, he bited me when I am trying to carry him.
Now when he is feeling scare, he ll jumps onto my legs, asking for my protection.
Being so good boy in the cage, never make noise.
Eat whatever food that I gave to him.
He's so small in size, tiny face with a pair of big ears..First time, I noticed that miniature pinscher is so cute and so defensive as well.
We guess that he is 5 years above. Poor little one without knowing his history including his name. We just call him Puppy or Little one小家伙.
Another dog that being abandoned..another little poor one.
Luckily, there is people willing to adopt him. He is going to have a home, but I am feeling sad here because he has been so cute that makes me fall in love with him.
Going to miss him very much..The first ever male dog that I like.

Monday, Tues, Wed, Thurs, Friday.

This is a busy week.
First of all, today I just passed the surgery test.
Then, I have to work on my presentation and study for tomorrow.
That's my monday.
Tuesday is a surgery day.
It will takes the whole day and I am the surgeon for this week.
That's why tonight I have to study and prepare for tomorrow.
So that I remove the right thing and don't cut off the wrong thing.
Good Luck for my first surgery.
I want to do castration.hihi~
Wednesday is my presentation day.
Present on control and treatment of babesiosis in dogs.
That's why I am working on my powerpoint just now.
Another excited day.
Thursday will be having pathophysiology test on heart and kidney.
Havent start to study yet.
Will I survive the day?
After test going to Kajang for satay? Going ramai-ramai.
That's the plan.
Friday is the day to off for holiday.
But have to go through the histopahology slides presentation first.
Then, I will let myself drown in the holiday..

* A list of works waiting for me..The fridge at home also need treatment, suspected no more coolant. Have to pay electric and streamyx bill before holiday. *

~ When I looked at Ah pau, my hamster..I wish that I could be a hamster. Sleeping at the daytime, running the wheel whole night, waiting for master to refill the food and then transfer the food in the pouch up to the house and store them..What a " Busy Hamster" life! ~

Not like me.

Tonight is like usual..Hot~
Long time not been to my blog. Recently, I really seldom update my blog.
This whole new year, I just feeling everything is not that right, including my mood.
Up and down. Up and down.
Many things happened. Many people come and go. Many feelings changed. Many things and people changed also or are going to change.
I used to be excited to join any trip and game, but me myself also don't know why lately I don't have such initiative already. Something has changed inside me. When there is somebody close to you can't go anywhere, can't cherish together with you, I ll feel sorry and incomplete. This is not because she doesn't want to. In fact, a bit scare of going out for any trip because I am really scare of if...No more optimistic me. But I am trying to not think of that. Trying my best to join even though deep in my heart is feeling unsecure and I didn't talk to anybody about that. I am feeling scare!
Two days ago, I got to know a friend of me met in an accident with his girl friend during valentine day. Unfortunately, his gf did not survived. Once again, that incident being put into my heart, my mind..and it always pops up to remind me.
Sometimes I ll feel like so helpless. How am I support to let people understand my feeling but not my excuses? Or am I really want everyone to know about that?
I can went blank standing in the middle of road looking at the car coming..But, it's ok because I can choose to wait untill I feel safe to cross the road. But I don't know how to say no to certain people sometimes. Perharps I also need to learn to say no.
To a best friend of mine :
May be sometime I acted in the wrong way. Giving the response wrongly. Getting mad unnecessary. I am just a normal people that will make mistake and may be I don't realise that I had hurt people. I still not mature in many things and I am feeling sorry about today for hurting you. I hope this do not make you feel like I am making the excuses. The truth thing is I only showing my real self, my anger to a friend that i trusted to. Trying my best to join this saturday's picnic by breaking my promise to accompany a friend to buy thing that day and change the date of cleaning up another friend's house to another day. I am trying to make everyone happy...Just hope that there is even a single person can understand that. I really a bit not like me lately, a bit tired, a bit unhappy, a bit unsecure..a bit of don't know what to do...and sincerely, sorry.

An accident! Just want to say...

15 Jan, Thursday evening, our group went to practical at a pig farm of Tanjung Sepat. That's also the pig farm that I went before for two weeks practical during sem break. So, both of us..me and Ing Ing were so excited and happy.
But who knows~ accident happened. She hitted by a lorry when she crossed the road just in front of the pig farm. That scene will never gone out from my brain for the rest of my life. In one glance, I saw her crossed the road back to the bus. Another glance when I turned back, I saw a lorry and seeing her there on the ground and the knocked down sound was so scary that I still can remember untill this moment.
Run to her and gosh..I burst up..crying~
Trying to figure up what to do..but I cannot think at all..BLANK.
What should I do? I want to help, but just dunno how to help her..
What should I do?..I am in panic and really break down at that time.
The feeling of losing somebody is coming back again.
Last time I pray so hard, but I still lose my beloved one.
When all of the feelings came back to me, I can't calm down. Really thank you to some of the friends there that hold me tight and calm me down on that day when I totally lost control of my feeling. That's make me manage to accompany her, take care of her, support her at the rest of the day untill the day she was discharged.
The scary feeling keep on haunted me after the accident, even though when she's in the hospital, I still cry very often. Everytime she has to bear with the pain, my heart is broken. That day, I try to rest and sleep after taking care of her for whole night, but ended up wake up and cry. The scary feeling haunted me a lot~ That's why~
I am sorry friend, if I have follow you back to the bus, maybe you wont been hit and get injured.
I am sorry friend, your best friend here is always blur blur. Even though, you were on the bed in hospital, you still worry about me and keep on remind me this and that.
I am sorry friend, I am not able to support you when you fainted in hospital. The scars on my hand now is the punishment to me.
I am sorry friend, I am not strong enough on the day you accident.
Luckily you are alright..
and thank you so much because you are alright.
I can't bear the pain of losing somebody else anymore.
So, thank you for being alright.
Thank you to our lecturer and his wife~ Dr Loh and Dr Foo.
Thank you to Sheen Yee, because you are there to keep me strong when I needed support so I can support her.
Thank you to all friends and coursemates for concerning her.
Thank you to all those that help up..
Girl, I want you to come back to class very soon with healthy you.. and we can discuss about our anime as usual, eat together, walk together, sit together, laugh together, gossip together..otherwise, I ll be very lonely..

I am so lazy~

Just passed my 21st birthday~
It's new year~ welcome 2009~
and I am so lazy..
Lazy to blog~
Even though it does pop up many many times in my mind~
But when there is free time,
I just can't stop from watching anime..
I can't pull myself out from D. Gray Man..
What a nice anime!

I am so lazy~
Even the new sem started..
But I can't wait to go back for chinese new year~
I miss home so much~
I wanna go home..

New year~
New wishes~
New life~

I need some motivation~